There's something wrong. All of the sudden I feel like every decision I make is life or death. Everything is putting pressure on me. I need to figure something out before I completely loose it again. Being constantly burned by people in the past has d e s t r o y e d me. I can't trust anything and this whole lack of confidence thing is starting to get in the way. I wish I could stop second guessing myself. I know I'm an awesome person, through and through. I've done nothing in the past two years but put myself on the line for people, hoping that all my good karma will one day catch up to me. Even if it doesn't I don't give a fuck because at the end of everything I know where my heart is. I also know I'm an amazing photographer. Everyday someone brings my work up or asks me to shoot. I turn most of it down. I'm not going to go around and shoot whatever I can throw in front of my lens like some people with cameras (I REFUSE TO CALL THEM PHOTOGRAPHERS) do daily. I don't have the time for that bullshit. I can get paid doing what I do, why would I waste my talent so you can have a new facebook default? I would love know to know when being a photographer became the new fad. Fuck you and you shit pictures. YOU SHOOT AUTOMATIC. I'd really love to take that camera that you do nothing but aim and fire with and shove it down your fucking faces. I've been doing an okay job of keeping my mouth shut for now. It's really difficult when one of your favorite pass times is verbally ripping people new assholes. God, I wish I could borrow just half of the cockiness of some of these clowns.
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